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 # Review of _Clancy_ (2024)
 
-Last Updated 2024-03-31
+Last Updated 2024-05-13
 
 ## Overcompensate
 
@@ -109,3 +109,60 @@ obscene margin. I hope they die.
 
 Here's hoping my luck works out on April 2. I hope it's less than $100,
 but at this point it's not really about cost.
+
+## Brief intermission: end of semester
+
+So I guess I wrote this on 2024-03-31:
+
+> - Despite probably intended to resonate with students, it did not
+>   resonate with me because I'm doing pretty ok this semester and am not
+>   contemplating suicide no thank you will check back when i need it
+
+This did not age well.
+
+Later on, the triplet of EECS courses nearly killed me (see [Winter 2024
+wrapup](../umich/w24_wrapup.md)). It's the most "Next Semester" moment, as
+this line repeated in my head:
+
+> Can't change what you've done  
+> Start fresh next semester
+
+## Backslide
+
+Oddly poppy. Lots of Asian influences. Like the flutes in the verses and
+zither-like riff at the end. The zither, as Paul Meany revealed, was
+actually a chopped-up sample of the muted piano in another WIP track. He
+nailed the feel though.
+
+Musically, there was nothing remarkable. Lyrically, there was nothing
+remarkable. Apparently the title "Backslide" has biblical origins, but
+I couldn't care less. What I assume it means is a relapse into some old
+bad habits.
+
+In a line Tyler discussed how he regretted making "Saturday" on _Scaled
+And Icy_ (2021). Back then he described it as a "bop" (it is). Poppiest
+song on the record, climax of chill-ness. I do not know the reason why he
+regrets it now, nor do I care. Artists change their minds, and set
+different standards, and I'm the victim of the inferiority complex that
+interferes with my music making.
+
+Last year I made a song, [This Song Will Uncure Your
+Depression](uncure-your-depression.md). I never listen to it. The
+unhealthy tendency to compare my work to those produced in a studio has
+made it very hard for me to appreciate my own music. Because I made it,
+I know how far it is from what I wished it sounds like.
+
+I wish some day I could be proud of a song I made.
+
+The selling point of the song is its MV. Josh Dun directed it. It's part
+of the plan to shoot one MV for each one of the songs, set to be released
+on the same day of the album, which was a late decision that postponed the
+release date by a week.
+
+I bet the boys are having fun coming up with all sorts of crazy shit. In
+"Backslide", Tyler bought bread buns, ate some, traded one for a cup of
+lemonade, littered all over the street while riding a bicycle, and got
+showered in rain and leaves. When he got home, Josh was grilling beef as
+Tyler dumped the bag of soggy bread on the pavement.
+
+He is a menace to society.