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diff --git a/docs/music/at-the-risk-of-feeling-dumb.md b/docs/music/at-the-risk-of-feeling-dumb.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..1e3c7e2 --- /dev/null +++ b/docs/music/at-the-risk-of-feeling-dumb.md @@ -0,0 +1,280 @@ +# At The Risk Of Feeling Dumb + +"At The Risk Of Feeling Dumb" (ATR hereafter) is the second-to-last track +on twenty one pilots' 2024 record, _Clancy_. I've discussed it in [Review +of _Clancy_ (2024)](clancy_review.md) that it + +>Starts off like circus music, but I feel it's the most serious song on +>the record. It tells you to check on your friends' mental health, no +>matter what they say — even at the risk of feeling dumb. + +>It's also the track that "sounds like them" and "feels like them". They +>spread a message, like "Neon Gravestones". The strongest track, and +>energetic as well. + +So naturally given the comically long summer break, I am gonna cover it. +From scratch. + +The goal of this cover is not to reproduce the original; instead, I opted +to be more creative with sounds and arrangement. + +While you read, you can open my [Faircamp](/jam) in a new tab and hit +play. + +## What's in the song? + +Oh boy. + +Since it's from scratch, I could not reuse stems or sample the original. +This endeavor ended up being my most complicated audio project ever. There +are 52 tracks. Fifty-two. Ardour lags as I scroll up and down. + +A synopsis: + +- Synths: lead, 4 pads, vibraphone, harp, high-pitched hum +- Drums: 808, Black Pearl (plugin), and a real snare drum +- Vocals: main, falsetto, lofi, tenor, and rap +- Autotune for each pitched vocal track +- Ukulele: some with fuzz effects +- Bass, where one track is shifted one octave up to emulate guitar +- Samples: see below + +### Samples + +I had to be creative with household items. + +- 0:00 - Cassette player +- 0:21 - Vernier calipers +- 0:22 - Spray bottle +- 0:55 - 2.54mm pin headers sliding against edge of table +- 0:56 - Ziploc of CR2032 battery holders (sounds like sleighbells) +- 2:12 - Two pencils +- 2:24 - Nitrile glove + +## Timeline + +I recorded ATR over 13 studio sessions (in my bedroom) in total. Eleven +were in the first half of June. Then I procrastinated two weeks. Then +I picked up where I left in early July. + +Rather unconventionally, I recorded the track one part at a time, rather +than laying out a complete backing track before vocals. When I was +recording Chorus 2, for example, everything following that was blank. +Thus, I had no idea where I was going. I came up with most of the creative +ideas halfway. + +Notable inspirations: + +- The intro is sung along to tøp's "Friend, Please" (which carries the + same message as ATR) +- "Nude" by Radiohead inspired the slap-like, one-octave-up bassline you + hear in Chorus 2 thru 4 +- Original Verse is a commentary on _Clancy_'s track listing +- I yanked the last bar of drums from "Levitate" + +## Technical details + +### Chord progression + +Really simple song in terms of chord progression. Everything is G-Em-Bm-D +except the post-chorus where it's G-Em-Bm-A-D. Turned out challenging as +I had to improvise rhythmically to make the same chords interesting over +and over again. + +### Mic rig + +Mom bought a phone tripod with a swing arm. The threaded hole on the phone +clip is identical to that on the mic holder, so naturally, up it went. No +more stacking boxes under the short-ass mic stand. + +I had no windshield so I improvised with a napkin wrapped around the wire +mesh tied with a rubber band. Can't keep out the hard P's though, so I had +to automate the fader. + +### Balanced cable + +I bought a balanced XLR cable to replace the XLR-quarter inch cable my mic +came with. The noise disappeared like the money in my wallet. 5/5 would +buy again. + +### Drums + +I used three drum kits in a single song. + +OK, one of them is a single snare drum I practiced on when I was 12. +Played with Trench-era Josh Dun drumsticks. You can hear it in Chorus +2 and Post-Chorus 1. I did not record the rest on the drum, because my +neighbor might complain. + +One day I was cleaning out some junk at my late great-grandparents' house +when I found my old electronic drumkit. I brought home the console, the +snare drum, and all the cables. With some hackery involving a MIDI-to-USB +adaptor I was able to record drums with real drumsticks. But I did not +because the drum pads worked just fine. + +The Black Pearl kit was a late addition. Before that, I used a built-in +kit, but the snare lacked punch, and the crash is just not wet enough. +Luckily, I have a few drumkits installed for unknown reasons, and this +Black Pearl kit blew my mind. + +### Pedal + +There's a pair of pedal switches (cost like 10 CNY each) I bought back in +2019 for a kinetic game I made (which didn't work, btw). So I soldered the +wires to a cable with a quarter inch tip-ring plug so that the contacts +short when I stomp it. It functions as a sustain pedal for my keyboard and +hihat open-close control for the drum kit. Neither turned out useful but +they sound cool. + +### Ukulele + +Didn't have the money to buy a condenser mic so it is what it is. + +### EQ & compressor + +I recorded the kick, snare, hihat and other cymbals on separate tracks so +they have different EQs. I used "Calf Equalizer 5 Band". The kick is +lowpassed and sidechained to many other tracks (such as bass) to compress +them so they don't muddle the 60 Hz range. + +### Autotune + +Yes, my vocals are autotuned. The plugin is "x42-Autotune". To avoid +sounding like an unnamed rap star, I had to keep the correction ratio +below 0.6. For each group of pitched vocal tracks singing the same melody, +I have a MIDI track for the autotune plugin to refer to. + +Sometimes I sing off-key so bad I have to do another take. And sometimes +the autotune overreacts so I have an automation track to taper down the +correction ratio temporarily. + +### Cassette player + +The click and whirr you hear at the beginning are a real AKAI cassette +player. I wish it worked. If it worked, I could have run my vocals through +an aux cable on tape and played it back to achieve physical lo-fi. + +### Album cover + +I reused assets from the recent reflow workshop 2. The color scheme is +inspired by _Clancy_ itself, and the title typesetting is inspired by +Radiohead's _In Rainbows_ (2007). The smoke is [a photo by Tigerzeng on +Wikimedia +Commons](https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Candle_smoke_structure_1.jpg). + +## Tools used + +### Software + +- Ardour: arrangement, recording, production +- Helm: synths +- Calf: plugins +- Black Pearl Drumkit: plugin +- Guitarix: plugins +- x42: plugins +- Krita: album cover +- Inkscape: album cover + +### Hardware + +- Interface: Behringer UMC22 +- Headphones: Audio-Technica ATH-M20x +- Keyboard: AKAI MPK mini play +- Mic: Shure PGA48 +- Bass: Ibanez GSR200 +- Ukulele: second-hand "Nalu", model unknown +- Drumsticks: Zildjian Josh Dun "Trench" artist series +- Snare drum: Majestic AK14D + +## Lyrics + +Yanked from Genius. Differences: + +- Added Intro +- I keep saying "on my lowest" instead of "at my lowest" +- Added Original Verse +- Numbered Choruses and Post-Choruses +- Minute changes in backing vocals + +[Intro] +I don't want anyone to drop anything for me + +[Chorus 1] +I don't want anyone, know me or not +See me [on] my lowest, you don't have to drop, drop, drop Don't have to +drop by Nothin' you can do this time I don't want anyone, know me or not +See me [on] my lowest, you don't have to drop Drop, drop, drop anything +for me Just keep your plans, I hope that you never have to drop + +[Verse 1] +Used to be you and me, matching Kawasaki Zs +Ride around 270 in Kawasaki tees +Two fighter jets matching energy +Trying to forget that we're in ejection seats + +[Pre‐Chorus] +So please, keep it in mind +Check on your friends +Every once in a while +Even if they say + +[Chorus 2] +I don't want anyone, know me or not +See mе [on] my lowest, you don't have to drop, drop, drop +Don't have to drop by +Nothin' you can do this timе +I don't want anyone, know me or not +See me [on] my lowest, you don't have to drop +Drop, drop, drop anything for me +Just keep your plans, I hope that you never have to drop +(Drop, drop, drop) + +[Post-Chorus 1] +At the risk of feelin' dumb, check in +It's not worth the risk of losin' a friend +Even if they say +"Just keep your plans, I hope that you never have to drop" + +[Original Verse] +I can read your mind man, where is Tyler's verse man? +Chill, let me have some words of my own man +The new record, it's called Clancy +On a scale of Trench, I'd say that it's a ninety +Can't forgive The Craving so close to Lavish +Your eyes are steamin' up? Here comes a colonoscopy +Upbeat (yeah), down thoughts (nah), guess it's called tradition +Thank you for your patience, program resumes shortly + +[Verse 2] +If I'm bein' real, man, don't know how I feel, man +'Bout you sleepin' so close to a weapon you conceal, man +Those night terrors are not somethin' to take lightly +I know that it's a risk sayin' this, don't fight me +(Stoppin' me, fight me) +(Stoppin' me, fight me) +(Stoppin' me, fight me) + +[Chorus 3] +I don't want anyone, know me or not +See me [on] my lowest, you don't have to drop, drop, drop +Don't have to drop by +Nothin' you can do this time +I don't want anyone, know me or not +See me [on] my lowest, you don't have to drop +(Drop, drop, drop) Anything for me +(Stopping me, stopping me, stopping me) +Just keep your plans, I hope that you never have to drop + +[Post-Chorus 2] +At the risk of feelin' dumb, check in +It's not worth the risk of losin' a friend +Even if they say +"Just keep your plans, I hope that you never have to drop" + +[Chorus 4] +I don't want anyone, know me or not +See me [on] my lowest, you don't have to drop +Drop, drop, drop anything +For me + +[Outro] diff --git a/docs/music/clancy_review.md b/docs/music/clancy_review.md index 8563153..1cd10a7 100644 --- a/docs/music/clancy_review.md +++ b/docs/music/clancy_review.md @@ -1,6 +1,6 @@ # Review of _Clancy_ (2024) -Last Updated 2024-05-23 +Last Updated 2024-06-17 ## Overcompensate @@ -288,7 +288,7 @@ The video features the bois riding around town dressed in suits in a limo. I guess some dreams came true? ![Tyler and Josh playing rock paper scissors by climbing out of the limo -windows](img/clancy_review/lavish_rock_paper_scissors.png) +windows](img/clancy_review/lavish_rock_paper_scissors.jpg) ### Navigating @@ -321,7 +321,7 @@ hit hard. The track is about "pushing on through" depression and hardships. It's like a response to "Snap Back", only more optimistic. ![Josh carrying PVC pipes while Tyler plays his -ukulele](img/clancy_review/oldies_station_josh_carrying_pipes.png) +ukulele](img/clancy_review/oldies_station_josh_carrying_pipes.jpg) It's the second time Josh was coerced into forced labor for a video shoot. He had to constantly carry PVC pipes to keep the camera rig rolling on @@ -349,7 +349,7 @@ room, living room, much smaller attic, bedroom, burning field, workshop, field (not burning), snow (next to a dead body), a plank atop two haypiles, roof, roof, steel beam over a road marked 12'-8", roof, on top of the Hexion building downtown -Columbus](img/clancy_review/josh_drumming_in_random_places.png) +Columbus](img/clancy_review/josh_drumming_in_random_places.jpg) One of my favorites. @@ -463,3 +463,42 @@ _Trench_, but it's a close contender. But as my music taste shifts, this might change. On a scale of _Trench_, I'd say _Clancy_ is 90% _Trench_. + +## Update: Alt tracklist + +So, a couple days after the release, the band announced a special edition +of the album called Digital Remains, which is a digital bundle with a PDF +containing promotional images and working drafts of lyrics. On one of the +images, an alternative tracklist can be seen: + +![Poster with track listing scribbled at the +bottom](img/clancy_review/alt_tracklist.jpg) + +The tracklist is as follows: + +1. Overcompensate +2. Next Semester +3. Backslide +4. Navigating +5. Routines In The Night +6. The Craving +7. Midwest Indigo +8. Lavish +9. Vignette +10. At The Risk Of Feeling Dumb +11. Snap Back +12. Oldies Station +13. Paladin Strait + +With "Midwest Indigo" between "The Craving" and "Lavish", it eliminates +the greatest flaw of the album. 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I release music on [my self-hosted Faircamp](/jam/). Sometimes I write a blogpost about it below. +### [At The Risk Of Feeling Dumb](at-the-risk-of-feeling-dumb.md) + +![Album cover. yellow smoke on a red +background](img/at-the-risk-of-feeling-dumb/cover.png) + +twenty one pilots cover made from scratch. + ### [Diag](diag.md) ![Album cover. Simplified birds-eye view of a university diff --git a/docs/shitpost/haiku_2.md b/docs/shitpost/haiku_2.md index 1c6d134..13b1cc8 100644 --- a/docs/shitpost/haiku_2.md +++ b/docs/shitpost/haiku_2.md @@ -32,3 +32,9 @@ Did they have gay sex? > "Violence is never…" Shut the fuck up, centralist Let me punch Nazis + +2024-07-05 + +> "Stop the Encampment!" +My Brother in Christ, it's You +who made that happen diff --git a/docs/shitpost/if_academia_worked_like_music.md b/docs/shitpost/if_academia_worked_like_music.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..506903f --- /dev/null +++ b/docs/shitpost/if_academia_worked_like_music.md @@ -0,0 +1,89 @@ +# If Academia Worked Like Music + +2024-07-06 + +You are an associate professor at the Fakeland University of Common +Knowledge (FUCK). After years of hard work with your best friends Ethan +and Albert (they go by Et and Al), you have 12 manuscripts you call +"demos". + +You rent a lab space, larger and more professional than the one in your +basement. The staff help you with cameras and stuff. + +After a two-week-long lab session, you take everything to your producer +Oliver Leaf, who has every tool imaginable for LaTeX typesetting. He has +the ability to get Nature to accept a CVS receipt. + +Over the duration of three months you sit together with Et, Al and Oliver +to discuss what looks best in print. Sometimes it feels like torture. You +commission artist Tik Zeichner to create a striking book cover. + +At the printing press, the .tex files are compiled to .pdf, printed out, +and bound into a hardcover. You and your friends each take a copy and +shoot some promotional photos. + +For the paper videos, you and Et Al do experiments in the most random +places: on a frozen lake, in bed, on top of a skyscraper, etc. Contrary to +what the video shows, the blowtorch doesn't actually melt quartz glass. At +the end you smash a few Erlenmeyer flasks in slomo just cause you can. + +The opening paper is released along with its paper video. It's a smash hit +(pun intended), although you had to cut the discussion entirely for the +radio mix. One month later, you drop a more opinionated paper. It sparks +controversy among your fanbase, which is needed for hype. + +The marketing team is working hard to plaster every billboard in every +city with your abstract. Soon it becomes impossible to end a conversation +without mentioning your name. + +On the day the book drops, you announce a world tour, which would be quite +accurate if North America and Europe were the only two continents. But +hey, Mexico technically counts as "Latin America" right? + +You show up at a surprise book signing party at a parking lot, before the +police show up and cancel it. Your 20,000 fans are disappointed and soon +riot. You narrowly escape. + +After a dozen interviews and promotional photoshoots, you read on the news +that your book is "generally favorable". It's only been ten days but +there's at least a hundred videos reproducing your reactions (called +"reaction videos"), or cover a part thereof ("covers"). Most are cringe. + +Like everything else, ticket prices skyrocketed over the pandemic. +A general admission ticket that used to cost 50 now costs 187. Your fans +are complaining how TicketPastor® monopolizes live research. + +Opening for you on the tour are undergrads who work in the lab next door. +But they specialize in wireless communication, a topic you doubt your +audience is interested in. Their antenna had grounding issues and there +was a constant hum. + +The crew help the undergrads clean up their workbench and leave. Then you +enter the stage. Thunderous cheering. Et and Al walk on stage. More +cheering. Neon signs that read "Your Research Saved My Life". You know +that isn't true; they saved themselves. + +Your setlist opens with the opening chapter in the book, which segues into +chapter 2. You then perform experiments from your previous books. The +sixth paper requires a pot of beewax, so you move through the crowd to the +Bee stage. The crowd cheers as you pass, trying to touch you without +consent. + +The crew shove a portable table into the mosh pit for them to hold up. Al +leaps off and surfs to the table, where he dilutes stock solutions into +0.001M phosphate buffered saline. At the end, he throws one empty test +tube into the pit. That's gotta sell for a hundred bucks on ebay. + +The show is over and you are exhausted. Some diehard fans, who you recall +seeing just the night before, have waited two hours at the crew exit. +Sure, instagram, tiktok, whatever. You crawl back into your touring van +and basically just sleep there. + +Eleven months later, just as the tour is over, the RIAA (Research Industry +Association of Anywhere) informs you that your book has been certified +gold, which means it has sold 500k copies, where 150 library checkouts +counts as one copy. It would have been way sooner if there wasn't so many +Sci-Hubbers out there, but then you remember Sci-Hub saving your ass as an +undergrad, so you can't really blame them. + +Time for more manuscripts. diff --git a/docs/shitpost/index.md b/docs/shitpost/index.md index acc4825..6f4e299 100644 --- a/docs/shitpost/index.md +++ b/docs/shitpost/index.md @@ -13,3 +13,4 @@ precious time you could've spent more wisely elsewhere: - [Haiku collection 2](haiku_2.md) - [Writing A Blogpost Without Using Backspace](no_backspace.md) - [Cringiest song I've ever heard](cringiest_song.md) +- [If Academia Worked Like Music](if_academia_worked_like_music.md) |